29 November 2008
The Growth - Birthday Edition
Today is my 29th B-day. well not really today since I'm typing this in advance. You think I'm blogging on my birthday? no way buddy.. lol Today is Nov 18th, this will post on my B-day. I'm sitting in a waiting room so I might start to ramble. I don't have work distracting me lol. I always take my birthdays as a chance to reflect on my personal goals.
When I was like 19 I just knew I was going to be married by 25 and making 6 figures. Yeah neither one of those happened. My early 20's were really odd, remembering how much I worked back then. I didn't have time to build no relationship to get married. I was on my money grind. I'd meet nice girls, go out a couple times and go right back to my paper chase. Women were nice but not as nice as dead presidents. I Never took the time to focus on them. I've always been the kind of person who is running around, doing multiple things at once. In college I went to school full time worked part-time and tutored people in between all that. Damn Studying I was on my paper chase. Everything was about that paper, Hell I even hustled people in tonk in high school. I didn't hit up the parties, have crazy drunken weekends or wild threesomes. I hustled, day and night, It was boring really. I wished I had enjoyed my 20's more. i had fun but i could have done sooo much more. Even after I got a full-time job I was on the run. I continued to worked 2 jobs and went to school part-time, not because I needed the money just because I'd rather work then sit in the house or run the streets. I didn't care about graduating. I just wanted to stay busy. I figured making money or going to school was better than sitting around, everything I did had to be productive.
Me and my cousin bought a house together when I was 22 and he was 23. He said I was the best roommate ever because I was never home. I left for work at 6am and didn't come back till 11pm, everyday. Even on the weekend I was gone all day. I came home to sleep and that's about it. I can't recall cooking 1 thing in that house. My cousin might have been my biggest role model back then, but that's another blog. It wasn't until I bought my own house that I actually spent time chilling at home. I didn't know it at the time but I was really ahead of everyone else my age. I always hung around older people so everything I did seemed normal. At 21 I was making more than my mom, went to vegas for my b-day, I was buying my mom and sisters Tiffany bracelets and coach bags. I think my niece was the only kid in her middle school with a real dooney and bourke bag. I was eating out with random girls all the time. Now that I think about it I was BALLIN!!! lol Sure it was materialistic but I didn't care. I enjoyed doing it. I never gave it a second thought, I made money and spent money, I was just living life. Now I look at other people who are in their 20's and I realize my mind was in a whole different place, not so much a better place just a different one. 10 years can change you in alot of ways. I'm not as much as a hustler as I used to be, I've slowed down and smelled the flowers a lil more. I'm not so obsessed with my bank account and FICO score. I value my relationships more, not just with women but with my family and friends too. I spend more time building them and less time building my shoe collection.
I'm still chasing my 6 figure dreams too. The last couple years I've been kinda dormant. I haven't done much besides being a dad. I feel like I'm being lazy. I'm slowly getting back into my groove though. I've been coming up with a dream for me and my fam. The youth of my family are crazy talented. I want to channel that into something that can fuel their dreams. I want to see them succeed. See my 6 figure dream isn't so much about the money as it's about opening possibilities. Think about how much you can do if you don't have to worry about bills and such, My day dreams used to be kinda fuzzy like an abstract art. I couldn't focus on them long enough for it to make sense. So I just had an idea of what they were. Lately they have been more and more clear. The more I think about it the more possible it seems. Music, Movies, Clothing, Acting we can combine all that and crank out projects. I'll be 30 next year, I'm still young. The last 10 years I've pretty much created a base to chase my dreams. When I was 19 I thought I'd be retired by 40, But really what would I do retired? I can't see myself sitting around the house all day. Hopefully by the time I hit 40 I'll be in a place where I can choose what I work on and focus on my dreams, whatever they may be. Anyway I'm starting to ramble, this is getting too long. In short i'm planning on spending the next 10 years back on my chase, only this time I'll be chasing dreams instead of paper.
I hope everyone had a Happy thanksgiving 2009 right around the corner.
As Told By Dave Van Buren