This post is inspired by this girl i saw yesterday on the train. She stared me dead in my eyes for like 10 seconds and I didn't say a word. It was early and my brain wasn't functioning yet. I kinda remember her face but I definitely remember her coat. It was like a cream wool trench, pretty nice... lol
sidebar: You like how I always talk about the girls I DON'T talk to huh. I think we already discussed why I don't mention people I DO date. It's bad JuJu. moving on...
As she stood 1 foot away from me on the train my mind decided to wake up and I got to thinking about I loose all desire to date based on my bank account. When I'm broke women are the furtherest thing from my mind. When I go out I like to not be on a budget. I don't want to have $40 and give some girl an evil eye because she ordered a steak... lol. I'd much rather just focus on having a good time and not how much it's going to cost. This is within reason of course, I only spoil my daughter.
I just hate counting the drinks at a bar and doing the math in my head or being out and not being able to do something I want to do because it's not in the budget. Like going to dinner then deciding to catch a movie, only you can't because your broke. That's the worst.. lol.
This has absolutely nothing to do with the girl on the train and why I didn't speak to her, other than the fact that my bank account directly effects my confidence. Even though the girl doesn't know, me knowing what I can and cant afford effects me. I get into a "whats the point" frame of mind. Like even if I do get her number I'm not going to ask her out because I can't afford to go anywhere. Granted I could always get her number and stall till I'm able to have some fun. I realize my logic doesn't make sense but that's why it's mine and not yours.. lol.
Oh yeah that girl got off at my stop too, she works around here so I'm sure I'll see her again. Hopefully she will have the same coat on so I can recognize her... lol