Let me start by saying thanks to everyone who commented or reached out on my last post.. I really appreciate all the kind words. Last week was rough, I didn't blog about everything that went on but yeah it was crazy. I felt blessed and cursed all at the same time.... Again, thank you.
Lets rewind back to end of September early October. I was chatting with my cousin "H", filling him in on what was going on with my life. He is the only dude I know who had actually been thru a custody battle and won. I was telling him about my BM issues and about breaking up the the summer GF. He told me something that I didn't really understand. He said "That's probably for the best", I didn't get it at first but he explained that I was about to go thru a long tough process and it's easier to do it single. He explained it and it made sense but I was still thinking that having someone to support you would still be best...
Fast forward to now, I understand what he was saying. While I appreciate all the people in my life who love and support me most days I just want to sit alone in my basement and zone out. At times it drains me to tell people whats going on. Repeating the same story over and over... It's like a bad song on the radio. I almost just want to tell them to read the blog lol. I've learned to laugh about it all just to cope even with that I can't remember the last day I woke up happy. This morning I woke up stressed with all kinds of thoughts going thru my head. Waking up stressed is no fun, trust me.
I just realized Valentines Day was around the corner. How could I forget? well I have court dates right before AND after the holiday. Shyt like that sucks the joy outta holidays for me. I HATE court, I'm sure I mentioned it before. 4 criminal cases in 2 days is some BS... smh. Typing that is funny to me. I've been charged with a crime, all the shyt I did as a kid and I never ended up in the court system. Now I have charges against me... smh
Any way on a funny note... the grammys were straight BS!!! how Flo-Rida going to be up for Best RAP album of the year and BP3 isn't? And what was with that 3D garbage? do they think people just have 3D glasses laying around? You know my cousin Puffy's biggest dream is to win a grammy. I was looking forward to crashing the stage at his acceptance speech till I saw that mess. Ya'll don't need to see me on stage in 3D lol.
Anyway I'll have more happy posts soon, don't want ya'll to think I'm suicidal or murderous. I actually have had some fun and laughs recently.